Finally, I'm done with LAST. After seeing the term test paper, i think i'll most probably get a C+ instead of a B. Hopefully Yee Mon will be nice to push me up to get a B.
So i'm offically going to Thailand for my OSIP....!!!
Been pondering upon many many things, but i don't feel as excited as the 1st day when i applied for it. Maybe it's the people going and me being the homely person that i'm so half hearted now.
What should I do...??!! If i back out i'll surely get some lousy SIP locally. What i fear most is that i don't enjoy myself there and i have nobody to pour my woes and sorrowness out. I hate "What if", ever since don't know when i start worrying, all the "what if" appear in my mind, over and over again. "What if", "What if","What if"..!!!!! Ahhhh....!!!
I'm starting to feel like as if i'm not coming back anymore.. the feeling just hit me like a bullet train. "better see more, feel more, enjoy more cos i won't be seeing, feeling, enjoying all these for 5 months" Ya, it's so emo, but i bet 100% i'll missed all those things and i'll sure flood the airport terminal.. That's for sure..
I think the dates for it is too fast that i can't catch my breath, one week to catch up with all my loved ones and preparing for everything before i'm gone for 5 months...
Like june and the rest have consoled and calm me, i hope i'll enjoy it and hopefully i won't get depression. Haha...
Oh well... When the time comes, i'll know... Better start mugging for my exams before i really get depression and hang myself if i need to take any sub...!!! i_i
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